let it snowww

ITS CHRISTMAS!!!! <3

lonely

She's fading away and no one seems to care
She's so close yet no one reaches out for her
Day by day she fades a little more
the only thing we can do is to keep her company
yet we can't even do that

too good to be true

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

song: Breathless

pens pencils and highlighters

mi manchi moltissimo

waiting

i'm just waiting for you to realize how imperfect i am...

Tik Tok

I still doubt you at times
but that's just me being over protective or..obsessive

its a love hate thing

Ok so maybe i have been going out alot lately. SO WHAT. its not like i go out every freaking day. Parents nag about university, homework, staying up late and it just keeps going on and on and freakin ON! you say i don't care about uni. wtf do you think i do at school. i panick over my marks just to please you people. you say i don't do my homework wtf do you think i do when im on the computer. you think i play all day long on the stupid computer WELL I DON'T so don't just go assuming things. You say i stay up late...well wtf do you think im doing im doing my freakin hwk tats wat im doing. WTF DO U PPL WANT FROM ME! you say i don't show any interest in school and picking a university. What do you want me to show HUH?! am I suppose to cry and freaking say "I WANNA GO TO UNIVERISTY" every single sec. I DON'T THINK SO . SO just stfu and leave me alone i don't care what you say anymore cuz i've been listenin to the same shit over and over again. just CALM urselves and let me do my own thing. I know what i'm doing...this is my life NOT urs so just BACK OFF. i understand you care but come on...i need space to just breathe.

useless

I just feel like I can't help or do anything that would help...I'm just on the sideline hoping and wishing nothing bad happens to the people I care for.

La La La :)

wat an interesting day <3

don't know what to do

*sigh so much for making a decision..

BLHABLHABLHA i think i freakin get it

OK I get the point that parents care for us and all. But there are points were they just drive you over the edge.
"You should've gotten a higher mark"
"School is easy i don't see why your struggling"
omfg, parents honestly don't know what we have to go through they think its soooo easyy to survive school. They just don't understand the stress we're in. Espesically the stress of worrying to please them. Yelling at me isn't gonna get me anywhere so why don't you guys just BACK OFF and let me breathe for once.

Decision made

ok I honestly think all guys are jerks now, complete JERKS. Well the ones at my school anyways.
I understand you might be confused with your feelings right now but don't and I repeat DON'T play around with me while your still deciding on who you want. You might as well kick me in the face while you're at it

damn that was really harsh....the only thing i'm truly mad about is....being placed sec place and being compared to another. if you truly cared and liked me...you would've decided already...*sigh

rock ur socks

TIME FOR A FRESH START YAYAYAYAY!
although I would like to put 100% focus on everything, there is still one problem I can't get off my mind :/
cause in the end...there is going to be one person with a broken heart and that person would most likely be me :(
*sighhhhh
gonna push that to the back of my mind and just do what I gotta do :)

Tired

I'm tired of everything that has been going on lately. Everything I'm work so hard on just comes back to me as a failure. From being a failure in life to being so confused with love. *sigh
I guess it is time to start fresh...
Everything happens for a reason...if something doesn't work out I guess its just not meant to be. Relationship and life wise.

FRESH start
happy thoughts
live the moment

Time

There is only so little time left.
In the end we'll all be saying goodbye.
Friends known for a year or more will be gone and disappear maybe forever
*sigh

So much to think about

Sometimes I just wish I was a little kid again. That way I don't have to be constantly worrying about everything.